great news! i am accidentally drunk on a monday night. here's what happened: i have been lightly flirting with this hot guy in my [REDACTED] language class for like two weeks now. sue me! a little light flirtation never killed anyone and it gave me a reason to look forward to class. a little crush is very useful now and then. i do fear that this is the kind of crush that fades with exposure but that's only slightly relevant to tonight's story.
so here's what happened: i kinda have the week from hell, i'm supposed to go on a date to see this chantal akerman movie tomorrow with this sweet girl, i have a fuckload of work to do, i have a bunch of social engagements, shit is fucked. so ofc i am sitting in [REDACTED] language class chatting with my classmates, and this guy who i've been flirting with (again! lightly! i cannot express how chill and laid back this flirting has been, i just literally asked about his tattoos once and we chat during the break) starts talking to me about my job and about his job (he is a bartender, i am aware of the red flags i used to work in a restaurant it's fine). anyways so he tells me that there are all these places i need to go in [REDACTED CITY I LIVE IN] and that after class tonight we're going to grab a drink at one of them. i'm like ok fine what the fuck why not, i just have work early tomorrow so i can only do one drink. i cannot fucking believe this it's so funny, why the fuck not, do it for the bit etc.
so after class he takes me to this completely empty bar where he chats with the bartender in turkish and tells me that i should get an amaretto sour so i do and it tastes like haribo sour cherries. he got lost on the way there and told me it was me - i said the american rap music was to blame (he handed me the aux and said play american music so i panicked and played doechii) - and he said yeah for sure that's why. in this bar i'm mostly sitting there amused by the situation and he's telling me about turkey and his life goals and all this random shit but it's fun and i did it for the bit and he ordered a drink just for me to try and drove me home. i actually was kind of expecting him to be a dick because he's always shooting the shit in class but he was suprisingly sweet and considerate? and tried to make sure that he hadn't been too pushy asking me out? we got a free shot of some clear liquor that tasted like liquorice and he insisted on driving me home and the shot hit me as soon as we got to my street so i was just sitting there giggling for a couple minutes. and then we ended up making out in his car for like 20 minutes! truly not what i was expecting from tonight but it was nice to be held and kissed and paid attention to, and it was clear that he was sweet and had been thinking about this and was trying to explain that his work schedule means that he couldn't ask me out on the weekend. but again i was just kinda committed to the bit so that was just the cherry on top. he said i was "crazy" but he liked it, which i wasn't quite sure how to interpret, but to be fair i was making out with him in his car after barely knowing him for two weeks so. maybe a little bit crazy. to be fair i think my bar for physical intimacy is quite a bit lower than other peoples'. he held my chin so gently. i want to be held gently, more than anything i think.
anyways! what a funny way to end my monday evening. i have kissed many worse frogs and now my wrists smell like whatever product was in his hair. what a funny little life i lead. all my love, see you soon.
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